Deine Wege, Herr, tu mir kund, deine Pfade lehre mich! -Psalm 25,4

When fear takes over. When the darkness seems revealing its power. When the sun is not by your side. You feel alone, rejected, unwanted. The fear tries to shut you down. The worries are stealing your hope. It feels like everyone is leaving you, judging you.  Even the person you trust the most does not trust you and choose to leave you. What's left? who are you running to now?  Fear. It is where depression starts. You would not understand what fear is, until you lose something or someone. Money, home, relationship, security, assurance, dignity, comfort, health, work, hope, anything. And you would not understand what fearlessness is until you have ever experienced any fear. Let’s think of Gethsemane for some minutes. Let’s think about the loneliness, the rejection, the fear, the betrayal, and the death, that someone has gone through. Someone, who knows exactly how it feels. Someone, who literally knows you and your pain better than anyone else on this earth. Someone, who love

  What is the first thing we think and do when we wake up in the morning? What do we desire the most? What worries us the most? What is our greatest fear? What makes us very sad? What makes us very happy? All the questions above can help us find out who or what we worship every day. For we humans are worshipping beings. There is always something we desire the most. Either ourselves, our money, our career, our study, or even our relationship with another human. All these temporal things fill our lives every day. Well is it wrong to do this stuff? No. We may and must do that, even anything! But...  “I have the right to do anything,” you say—but not everything is beneficial.  “I have the right to do anything”—but not everything is constructive”                                                                                                                  1 Corinthians 10, 23 But not everything is beneficial… But not everything is constructive… We need to examine our heart. What

When you choose to love is when you dare to forget yourself. When you choose to love, you are opening the door to your heart and giving that person great access to you. You get a sense of belonging and being filled, you let him look at the walls of your heart's chamber, get to know your heart package. He examines what your heart needs. He studies every scratch and wound of the past, your fears and comfort zones now, and your dreams and hopes for the future. He sees you. When the observation stage is complete... it is when he is used to dwelling in your heart. He gently touches the part of your heart that might be clearing up the trash and old glass. He made a container made of white gold that ensures your heart's happiness. You're touched. Your heart is satisfied. You are addicted and depend very much on his work. You think that then he already knows you well. Slowly you sow the seeds of your dependence on his presence. Without you knowing it, his presence is like a sharp k

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